Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Before I was a Mom

Mother's Day is right around the corner and it is so hard to believe that I am the Momma to TWO babies. Sure, one of my kids I haven't held but I've felt her kick, I've heard her heart beat, and I love her. I stumbled upon this poem online. And as a mother of a 9 year old, it's all still so true. I still sneak in Ryan's room in the middle of the night to make sure he is covered up and all is well. I still cherish the times when he will crawl in my lap and sit for awhile. But BEFORE I became a Mom I didn't know any of this. I thank God every day for the precious gift of children. For this child I have prayed. For Ryan and Harper, I prayed and God granted me this petition. 

Before I was a Mom,

I never tripped over toys

or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not

my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never been puked on.

Pooped on.

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind

and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held down a screaming child

so doctors could do tests.

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night

watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop

the hurt.

I never knew that something so small

could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would

love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,

I didn't know the feeling of

having my heart outside my body..

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond

between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small

could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to

make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth,

the joy,

the love,

the heartache,

the wonderment

or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom